Too Much to Hold Onto

I have to go to work in like an hour.. my second shift. I got to work with one of my step-sisters lastnight so it wasnt bad at all.. but tonight she is not working..

My anxiety is off the wall.. Rob is going to meet me downtown and walk with me to work.. I"m like freaking out.. I need a smoke.. ungh.. I dont want to work. I had the ultimate worse sleep in my entire life.. I feel like I didn't sleep at all... which is not good.. I should probably have some coffee right now...

I don't want to go... I really dont.. I have to go to the store..